学歴; history

homage to <form|emptiness>
homage to <samsara|nibbana>
homage to <ignorance|wisdom>
homage to the continual birth of ai ki.

homage to vajradhara
homage to the creator gods of this realm,
homage to the prophets in service of them,
homage to the wisdom that rains on these lands.

they say a lotus grows from the mud,
and this earth is witness, for this is the fertile
ground where this has arisen.

homage to the masters of ancient ways;
homage to my <teacher|protector> in this life,
how fortunate we are to be traveling this way,
how fortunate we are to be accompanied by more than one.

homage to kunzig shamar rinpoche.
do not squander this life.
climb! not even buddha can save you.

shadows of probability,
traversing the kaleidoscope,
of what humans call “time”.


This is by no means a complete account, it is a fraction, as it would require the assemblage of another universe, a clone of this one. These are shadows of complexity super-positioned with simplicity; an interplay of Energy and Schrödinger Lenses (slit experiments, mandala, stereotypes) that generate a flow of interference patterns we call life, and for some, samsara, and for more the universe or cosmos.


COVID Sabbatical

Currently on sabbatical from a decade in secular life; meditating, gardening, calligraphy, study, poetry, and observing training from all aspects of budo and religious practice are the current topic of main concern.

Return to Aikido

Gaelan Lloyd & Ian Sherman, Virginia City, NV

A few years ago, Aikido called back, simultaneously from a powerful vision combined with having being asked by individuals to teach them and one in particular very sincerely over the course of many years. It did not feel appropriate to teach without first paying respects, so having booked a flight and permission to stay at the DC Dojo, it was time to return to the mat, having changed.

Tadaima; “you ordered a diamond…,” Saotome Sensei said profoundly; ten thousand bows would not be enough.

During this period, Gaelan and I met another significant part of our lives, a professor, Ian, whose grace and charm only served to continue to build what we have built together.

Secular Decade

Gaelan Lloyd on Ferry
Gaelan Lloyd and Roy Æ Hodges on the Bremerton Ferry having a picnic on the tailgate, facing the Olympics.

It started with a meditation, and a twenty six mile walk from Aikido Shobukan Dojo to Bodhi Path in Potomac Maryland to visit to Shamar Rinpoche.

“Rinpoche, I don’t think martial arts are the best way for me to benefit all sentient beings,” I asked one night after a twenty-six mile walk during a deep meditation on the crashing together of bu and do.

“Of course not,” Rinpoche replied, opening a dialogue.

Worked in secular life for a decade of which was leading technical efforts both engineering and analytics related in public, private, and not-for profit industries while simultaneously developing a home with domestic partners and a future property for a shrine, dojo, study, and retreat center. Prototyped, built, supported, and sold several software companies during the secular decade, and returned to Aikido much better for it.

It was here within a small little beach cottage in downtown Laguna Beach, Californa that Gaelan Lloyd walked into this life and continued where Sensei could not. He drove up to the beach cottage long ago for an animal, and it has been an adventure ever since. This is care and devotion to another of my masters, one with a strong heart of samurai. No doubt; confidence, beyond arrogance and with great gentleness and attention to detail.

Deshi Decade

Accounting for the decade post-military and pre-secular life.

植芝盛平; 翁先生
(photographer unknown)
五月女貢師範; Udvar Hazy Center, Dulles, VA (photgrapher Roy Æ Hodges)
Kunzig Shamar Rinpoche; Mipham Chokyi Lodro
(photographer unknown)

Before the decade of secular life, lived as a deshi in Aikido Shobukan Dojo for nearly a decade in Washington, DC, the Headquarters Dojo of Aikido Schools of Ueshiba under the graces of the Saotome Sensei. lived, trained, and practiced aikido daily. practiced meditation, calligraphy, reading, writing, poetry, arts, and instructed between scheduled classes 1:1 and to small personal groups who requested instruction. Sensei’s regular visits allowed for significant time with sensei, driving, shopping, accompanying walks, museums, tending to VIP guests, and receiving lectures and instructions.

“You know [R]oy,” sensei pronounced the name with minimal aspiration on the ‘R’, and maximum emphasis on the ‘oy’, “people no understanding you… sensei knowing…,” followed by a pause that lasted a few steps, and without changing stride, he continued, “sensei knowing because people no understanding sensei. You understanding?”

“Yes Sensei.”

There are no words for the appreciation for Sensei’s teaching. There are no gifts that can compensate for this gem, as all of its facets radiate from a dynamic line, limitless, yet perpendicular appearing as one point. It operates abstract time, abstract location. For all beings.

This is transmission.

While at Aikido Shobukan Dojo, increasing meditative practices and relationships with dojo members lead to meeting Kunzig Shamar Rinpoche and receiving instruction as root guru in Karma Kagyu school of Buddhism. committed to vows and empowerments, and teachings, which remain today, the name given by Shamar Rinpoche is Karma Semten Chophel.

Intelligence Bridge

Prior to living in the dojo, while training there, worked in private support of government, military, and intelligence communities in the DC metro area toward a career, that is, until an invitation to move in temporarily at the dojo was offered to care take, which was a narrow window to assist, which was taken at the expense of several career invitations as a “blue badger” in Central Intelligence Agency and a specialist career option at State Department, with invitation to training at Quantico.

Military Life

Was in the United States Army in the field of electronics and communications for several years. Served in United States Army Alaska (USARAK), in support of United States Army Pacific Command (USARPAC) as a sole supporter of specialized equipment serving operational readiness. It was in the military that awareness of O’Sensei first appeared while crossing intense study in Buddhist Suttas during off hours, which lead to finding a small aikido school on base, lead by a soldier well skilled in martial arts, whom left, having qualified for Special Forces. It was this soldier that said, “you don’t need to go to Japan to learn Aikido, the best Aikido instructor is right here in the United States, Saotome Sensei.”

While on base, assisted with a children’s program for the remaining years in the service. as a light unit, we received training fit for units that would meet opposing forces, and trained regularly, this training was helpful for future living in the dojo, and this training is highly effective after decades of research and mistakes through many wars and police actions around the world. Turned down re-enlistment options which had significant support from Warrant Officers for Warrant Officer Candidate School, and instead committed to training at Aikido Shobukan Dojo to learn from Mitsugi Saotome Shihan.

Lineage & Influence

This is a consolidated list, non-exhaustive, of major influencers in this life.

植芝盛平; 大先生;
Morihei Ueshiba, O-Sensei
It’s ok to go beyond, even when self-view and we-view have no capacity to grasp it.

Mitsugi Saotome Shihan
Japan & USA
Realized the hidden, manifest, and divine.

Patty Saotome
Realized the value and skill in the arts of contrast, love, generosity, and clarified intention.

མི་ཕམ་ཆོས་ཀྱི་བློ་གྲོས་་; ཞྭ་དམར་པ་
Kunzig Shamar Rinpoche
World[s] Citizen
The moon radiates bright! Realized, doubt is truly a hindrance.

Don Ellingsworth
Tampa Bay, FL
Realized, there are others.

Julie Tollen
Tampa Bay, FL
Realized it’s ok to share insights.

Robert Deppe
Washington, DC
Realized, it’s ok to go past the edge, and don’t hurt ’em.

Sharon Hainsfurther
Washington, DC
Love, just love. Really.

Rob Loughan
Incline Village, NV
A long series of mentoring maxims with Rob; the primary is “your job is to compress time.”

Aaron Burnett
Seattle, WA
Realized that it’s ok to tell a CEO what is really being observed; it’s ok to be disliked.

Casey Curtis
Seattle WA
Realized “… take care of the team, because…”.

Paul Weinstein
Seattle, WA
Realized “not but” and the importance of not compromising values.

David Shoup
Realized, the value of friendship after initial clashes and that perfect truly is, the enemy, of, the good.

Geoff O’Farrell
Kirkland, WA
Realized genuine care and service leadership.

Rob O’Farrell
Kirkland, WA
Realized “marketing vs. reality”, the value of marketecture, and the truth of the valuation race.

Pat O’Farrell
Realized that being objective is a middle way, and realized the complexity of SQL.

Samye Rinzen
San Antonio, TX
First attempt at a relation, realized not have the head up one’s posterior.

Mike Marriner
Laguna Beach, CA
Took a chance on software products produced to help small businesses. Realized that nobody really knows what they are doing.

Ivan Menjivar
Realized quite a bit, and provided the tough love to continue growth.

Janet W. Smith
Realized that combining academics, compassion, and love, and introduced to real bonafide Chinese Five Element Theory.

Pennye Jones-Napier
Washington, DC
Realized that it’s safe to be out.

Julie Paez
Washington, DC
Realized that it’s ok to transcend spiritually liminality and be out while doing it.

Peggy Kroder, Aikido Shobukan Dojo, Washington, DC

Peggy Kroder
Washington, DC
Realized what a functional family is.

Hiroshi Ikeda
Boulder, CO
Realized that it’s ok to practice ku no jutsu with shihan.

Roy Æ Hodges, Kevin Choate, Hiroshi Ikeda – Mount Evans, CO

Ken Purdy
Gleason, WI
Realized functional country living.

Peggy Kroder, Ken Purdy, Beth Mizuno, and Roy Æ Hodges – Gleason, WI

Dale Lupu
Realized Hospice & Palliative Medicine for the World, together.

Peter Trimmer
Washington, DC
Realized dojo cho work is public relations work, and that nice isn’t always compassionate or loving.

Dale Lupu, Peter Trimmer, and Friends at American Board of Hospice and Palliative Medicine

Paul Kang
New York, NY
Realized sincerity and Japanese spirit in community mission.

Mike Rosario
Washington, DC
Realized sincerity, syncopation, rhythm, harmony, and the tension of trust in family.

Mike Rosario, fellow deshi at Aikido Shobukan Dojo

Jim Frazer
Old Lyme, CT
Realized the hidden mastery of moving matter with possibility.

Jim Frazer and his antique Stone Worker truck, Old Lyme, CT

Beth Mizuno
Washington, DC
Realized lessons about training contrast and range.

Kevin Choate
Chicago, IL
Realized the value of humor.

Paul Kang Sensei, Bond Street Dojo, New York, NY

Hideyuki Kaiwa Sensei

Realized lightning cut and the value of sincere keiko, transmission, and the grace of sharing teachings of deshi with other masters; this one Ono-ha Ittô-ryu.

Frank Doss (Koinu), Cornwall, Ontario, Canada

Frank Doss
Cornwall, Ontario
Realized the value of martial-spiritual friendship and the endless depth of matsukaze, getsumei no michi, and the world of Bujinkan Budo Taijutsu.

John Willson
Prince Edward Island, Canada
Realized [redacted], martial skill, intelligence, and courage from the Ishizuka Dojo.

Regina Hodges
Realized steadfast survival against all odds.
“Will you remember this pencil on the side of this desk in twenty years?”
“Yes,” Gina said.
And she did, and still does.

#buddhism, #martial, #bujinkan
Undernet IRC
Realized the practice together that is writing and reading. This is where I had met Frank Doss (koinu), John Willson, PlagueRat, jnana, not2, and others in #buddhism

Derek Pinkerton
U.S. Army, AK
Realized ukemi and atemi. First aikido instructor and set forth the ground work for keiko and travelling to see Mitsugi Saotome, Shihan. “You don’t need to go to Japan to learn Aikido, we have the best instructor here, and his name is Saotome Sensei.”

Chief Maes
U.S. Army, AK
Realized empowerment optimization.

Chief Maes, U.S. Army, Ft. Wainwright, AK; CECOM

Joseph Keel
Fredericksburg, VA
Realized brother from another mother. He’s now one of the most decorated officers of the Bureau of Indian Affairs.

Andy Keel
Fredericksburg, VA
Realized crazy, whacky, and zany ain’t all that bad.

Gordon Reid
Smoke Jumper, AK
Realized the uniqueness that is the Smoke Jumper’s life and reflections of sincerity.

SSG Gaddy
U.S. Army, AK
Realized genuine spiritual grace.

Annie Keel
Fredericksburg, VA
A mom; the mom with the Kool-Aid just before we would go out and play soldier or cowboys and indians, then split weeping willow and lick the bark (little did we know, yes we knew…).

Frank Keel
Fredericksburg, VA
The first lawyer I’ve ever met, and a real genuine individual trying to make a difference in tribal-government affairs.

John & Ken
Palm Springs, CA
Realized family and business within the LGBTQ space.

Roy, Linda, and Gina Hodges – Skyline Drive, VA

Rosalinda Hodges
Fredericksburg, VA
Realized the family gift, that keeps on giving. Realized that going to public school rather than the gifted school, might have just saved this life.

Rosalinda Hodges, Thankgiving Dinner – Fredericksburg, VA

Linda & Regina Hodges
Realized our bond is strong regardless of the #@$! we went through growing up.

Jennifer Gordon
Fredericksburg, VA
I realized that my blindness to stereotype is a gift for non-radical inclusion.

Master Seong
Fredericksburg, VA
A Tae Kwon Do master, who asks which is better? Power or speed? He asked baring a gold tooth. It worked to stop bullying in less than a few months.